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Wednesday, 23 July 2014

The post-doc interview -- some useful feedback

I recently had a skype interview with Monash University’s Learning with New Media Research Group for a post-doctoral fellowship. I was completely surprised by the request for an interview as I thought I was nowhere near qualified for the position on offer. They wanted an ethnographer and I’m a phenomenographer. They needed someone with NVivo experience I still use post-it notes and Excel.

I applied for the position simply for the experience, the understanding that you need to be in it to win it, and an embarrassingly gushy PhD-crush on several members of the interview panel. Professor Neil Selwyn's work helped me formulate the social media component of my method and conceptual framework, and Dr Nicola Johnson (and other's) work guided my consideration of some tricky ethical issues.

Needless to say, I didn’t get the job but I got some great feedback. I thought I would use this blog to share it. Hopefully it will help someone when applying for an academic position.

Neil: We all felt that you interviewed well, and picked up on your obvious enthusiasm/spirit (which can often not come across in interviews where people will be more reserved/less expressive).

My musings: I think it helped that I was simply excited to meet the interview panel. My excitement came from reading the work of members of the LNM research group extensively, formulating opinions about it, and making connections to my own work. It also helped that the conceptual grounding of the research group is very similar to my own. You don’t really want a job where you have reservations about the ethics or vision of a company.

Neil: We were looking for potential to write, so were not concerned by the lack of publications. However, for other posts it might be good to have some specific journals that you will be submitting to (this gives a good indication that you are actually getting on with the writing/publishing process rather than just thinking about it).

My musings: This is one of the questions I knew was coming and was prepared to be defensive. The mantra is always “publish early, publish often”. I have a very limited track record. The reason for this is that I am a PhD mum. My children come before my career. I have not had time to publish, write a thesis and rear two girls. I obviously came across as regretful because…

Neil: Scott [Bulfin] picked up on the need not to apologise for family/real-life commitments.

My musings: This advice floored me because it is the exact opposite of the academic culture with which I am familiar. I have spent the last five years apologising for not being able to make HDR events because I have to pick my babies up from child care, missing out on vital HDR meetings that always seem to be during witching hour, and frankly feeling like my contribution was second to the full-time on-campus candidates. Next time I interview, I’m going to use my part-time, PhD and full-time motherhood  status as a strength rather than a weakness and stuff the haters. I only want to work with people that put their families first anyway

Neil: Also, when talking about what you've written, one obvious recent output is the thesis - not many people write an 80,000 word publication so don't be afraid to stress that as a recent piece of writing.

My musings: I think this is an important point. A PhD is individual and collegial. It shows you can work independently and as a team. I didn’t bring up my PhD because I just thought everyone had one. That’s the starting line for a post-doc. Next time I’ll be sure to mention it.

Neil: The only other piece of constructive feedback that springs to mind is that your answers were a little teacher/classroom-focused. This is *very* appropriate for most jobs in Faculties of Education - but for more sociological/social research it can help not to just think of education as teaching/teachers and students/learning.

My musings: This is the key learning I am taking away from the interview. If I want to break out of the high school teacher mould, I need to diversify. I need to start thinking like a sociologist. My PhD was in educational sociology but I still work for schools so the mould is well fitted. The step I have taken to begin the process of changing my mindset is to attend my university's educational sociology SIG meetings.

Have you got any good tips for an academic interview?


Sunday, 29 December 2013

Is a PhD worth missing summer?

I haven’t written a blog in a very long time. I've been writing other stuff. A big fat thing called a PhD thesis. However, the past couple of days have been like walking through sand. I can actually see my thesis as a finished product but realising it has become gruelling. I want to write but for some reason my brain stops working simultaneously with walking out my front door. So why do I feel this way? Is it because I lie awake too long excited about what I want to say and then cannot function the next day from lack of sleep? Is it the heat (it’s pretty damn hot here right now)? Is it the air-conditioned windowless room I write in? Is it that I am afraid to *put it out there*?

I think  all of the above play a role but you know what I reckon the main factor is? I miss my kids. I’m sitting here in my air-conditioned, windowless room and playing with strategies for untangling my thoughts and weaving them back together trying to meet a self-imposed deadline wrapped up in a much needed living allowance. I’m taking advantage of my husband’s leave and holiday visits from Gran and Gramps to distract Christmas lolly fuelled limbs and needy little sticky faces and from my absence. God, I miss those faces (tearing up a bit).

I’m missing summer days in the pool, smelling like sunscreen, chlorine and salt. I’m missing dripping mango down my arms, smearing frozen blueberries across my face and spitting watermelon seeds across the lawn. Sucking on ice-blocks. I’m missing breathing in the stillness and humidity and the anticipation of a storm. I’m missing the green. God, Brisbane is green at the moment. I am missing having an active role ingraining summer into my children’s DNA. All for a bloody PhD.


Still, it’s only one summer. My children are young. There are plenty of summers left and I still have weekends. Next summer you’ll be able to call me Dr.

Wednesday, 7 August 2013

Expressing my relationship with my blog

Today I had a good day. I am satisfied with my output and I am feeling more confident. I am again at the meta-cognitive end of my day. The time of day where I feel exhausted from the day of writing up my dissertation, needing to spend my last hour reflecting on the day that was.

Today was spent reflecting on my relationship with the participants, context and data. Thus, pipe in mouth (;-D @thesiswhisperer and @dr_know), I began thinking about my relationship with my blog and that I haven't declared my position in quite some time.

I am a teacher that likes to know how to teach stuff. I tend to absorb any information about the cognitive processes associated with any of my activities. I think about what I am learning and what techniques I could use to teach the learning. There is a lot to be said for the teacher that is not an expert in their field. Staying one step ahead of the students is an adrenaline rush and can be very rewarding, especially when both teacher and student experience a mutual light bulb moment. I had one of those moments yesterday and am still tingling from the experience of learning something new from my students. I yearn for those times and they become rarer and rarer as I re-teach a subject. 

My blogs are about my process of coming to grips with the complexity of writing a dissertation. I do not claim to be an expert or believe my way is the correct approach. Processes I thought were enlightened a month ago, I have discarded or regard with nostalgia. Processes I dismissed have now made a resurgence and again I swear by them. But the reality is, I am still a novice. I am still learning. I need to be flexible.

Many of the changes to my plans and processes have come about because I am a mother. My day is not as straight forward as leaving the house for campus and coming home for dinner and TV with my husband. Two days per week that I write involve feeding and dressing a 2.5 year old (who would hang from the ceiling if it was humanly possible) and a 6 month old baby. I herd them into the car, hopefully dropping them at their day-care Mum's house by 8:30am (on a good day). I am lucky if I can get start work by 9:30am. I am sure other mums can relate. My day is further complicated by my love hate relationship with my breast pump. I hate expressing milk (but love breast feeding my baby) and my day revolves around the timing of pumping. 

The timing of pumping is what has made some writing techniques (like pomodoro) difficult to rigorously maintain. 

Today (and I should caveat this through the emphasis on TODAY), I found an approach that flowed like mother's milk (sorry but it is National Breastfeeding Week). I started my day with 90 minutes of free writing, into my methodology outline, using Tony Schwartz's plan for personal effectiveness (http://blogs.hbr.org/schwartz/2011/01/the-most-important-practice-i.html). This brought me up to my first express. The second session, I chose a book from my field and read chapter by chapter adding ideas, phrases and quotes into my outline. Each time I finished a chapter, I went and fixed a cup of tea. The four hour session then fell into a natural pomodoro (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pomodoro_Technique). By my second express my brain was telling me that the day was done and I needed to spend some time reflecting on my practice. 

So we come full circle. I wonder how I will feel about this plan next week? I may love it or hate it. What do you think about it?

PS: Twitter and Facebook have been awash with tips and encouragement to help me with my writer's block (which, thankfully, has gone for now) and I will Storify all the advice in due course as my way of saying thanks to the "great good place" that is my social media reality.

  

Wednesday, 10 July 2013

Leaving it

You know when you can't see the forest for the trees? When the details are so overwhelming, complicated or just plain plentiful that discerning the overall idea becomes simply impossible? Try taking some leave.

I have just resumed my PhD study after 12 months of maternity leave. I have come back refreshed and ready to work, but more importantly I can't remember what I was doing before I went on leave. I do remember my research question. I do remember that I have collected the artefacts and completed some initial analysis. I remember only the results of the analysis that excited me. In other words, I have only retained a small amount of the last 3.5 years of work. While that may sound depressing, I think it is actually useful.

We don't retain a lot of what we learn. Heaps of education theory has been dedicated to helping teachers use strategies to increase knowledge retention but I think this Gotye parody hits the nail on the head http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VxkHM4DUDKM. His teacher probably had a rock star cotton gin mnemonic.

Maybe its a good thing that people forget a lot of the details because then clarity can sink in, paring away the bulk until left with a skinny idea. Frankly, an idea that has been on a diet is a lot easier to lift.

Here's two examples of what I mean. Before I went on leave, I could not (for the life of me) come up with a model that illustrated my adjustments to the analysis. After leave it struck me and the resulting model is beautiful in its simplicity (as well as in its shades of blue). Before leave I didn't fully understand my base analytic approach. It seemed too complicated and cumbersome. After leave, my analysis chapter is almost complete after a brain wave. Again elegance in simplicity. I'm not saying I have it right but I have enough years of teaching behind me to know that the simplest answer is usually the best. Apologies if I sound arrogant.

I should say that I didn't entirely take leave from thinking about my PhD but I did take leave from the content. I joined Twitter and began networking with PhD students from around the world (usually in the middle of the night while feeding my newborn). I also began to read and follow PhD aficionados like @thesiswhisperer, @PhDForum, @drwcarter and @Thomsonpat. I think this meta-cognitive time is time well spent. I began to think about how I learn and synthesised some of my pre-leave feedback. The results? I now have techniques that have (so far) stopped my tendency to tangent and become bogged down in interesting but irrelevant ideas.

For example, I write using pomodoros, something I heard about watching my first #phdchat. The 25 minute writing sessions keep me on track because my mind tells me I have to get the section finished before the alarm goes off.  My learning style tells me that there is no time to wander because the clock is ticking (probably from years of taking and conducting exams). Additionally, the 5-10 minute breaks give me time to reflect on whether what I achieved in the last 25 minutes was relevant; if not, I have only wasted 25 minutes of work, not a day.

So, if your PhD is getting a bit much and you can't see the forest for the trees, try taking some leave. It doesn't have to be a year. Maybe an afternoon, a weekend or a fortnight. But remember some of the finest things in life (like toddlers) are best when rested.

Tuesday, 4 June 2013

The birth plan – The plan to deliver my thesis draft in 6 months


Can I write a thesis draft in six months? I think I can but I also thought I could give birth to children without drugs or complications (Ha!).

All my children have been born around Christmas (poor things), why break with tradition?

If I have learned anything from family making, the important thing is to have a plan. Do everything in your power to keep to a plan but don’t be disappointed when life gets in the way. What was it that John Lennon said?

So here is my plan on a short and long-term basis:

Weekly
I have two days where both children are in kindy. These are my writing days.

I have one day where the baby is home. This is my reading day.

I have the weekend where my husband can watch the children. This is when I will blog and edit and do all those “little” jobs.

Fortnightly
One meeting per fortnight with my principle supervisor to chat, bounce things around and basically keep myself on track (my brain has a tenancy to tangent. Note to self: keep a tangent diary)

6 weekly
Submit a raw chapter draft to be reviewed by both my supervisors. Have a review meeting 10 days later.

Repeat
I am planning 6 chapters.


My weekly schedule (different from a plan)
Using tips published by Dr Wendy Carter in her blog (http://www.phdcompletion.com/phd-completion-why-create-a-writing-schedule/), I am scheduling my time with my family, my chores and my PhD. Now where is that massive calendar?

Can I bring this thing kicking and screaming into the world? I don’t really care if you don't think I can. I’m damn well gonna try!

Friday, 5 April 2013

Working through a part time PhD

  1. Completing a PhD is a difficult task for a full time student but some would argue even more so for a part time student. But it doesn't have to be any more difficult. I think it's important to look at and approach a part time PhD as a completely different beast. 

    The following is a recap of tips about completing a part time PhD gleaned from Twitter over the past week. The information collection process involved reading blogs, asking questions and hosting a #PhDchat. 

    Four main points were raised over the information collection period: 
    1. What are the advantages of conducting a part time PhD?
    2. How does or can decision making about the PhD differ between full time and part time?
    3. Motivation and tips for writing in short bursts.
    4. Loneliness as a part time PhD student and how to build a community to address this.

    Below I describe my experiences as a part time PhD student and the "tricks of the trade" as seen by both students and supervisors.

    1. What are the advantages of conducting a part time PhD?
    The main advantage I see as a part time PhD student is that I am not required to be as committed to the process as a full time student. I started part time because I needed to pay the mortgage. I presented my confirmation presentation heavily pregnant at about the 18 month mark. Maternity leave gave me an opportunity to continue working on my PhD but learning to be a mother for the first time was tough. My part time status enabled me to drop the study for much needed sleep and childhood sicknesses. I was still able to work at a full time pace for the first stages of my PhD but part time gave me flexibility.

    Here's what others had to say:
  2. @nomynjb Financially going full-time was not an option. PT allows career progression and study. Don’t regret it but very hard work. #phdchat
  3. @Alicia_McCoy @nomynjb @AbbeyDiaz_says I do find myself questioning things more, in a constructive way. That’s a +ve for me/work #phdchat
  4. @nomynjb My supervisors know I work in a demanding job so are pretty flexible re s/v etc. As Chris said, career progress, finances #phdchat
  5. @AbbeyDiaz_says @nomynjb Me too. My PhD is very related to work so I feel I never switch off. Guilty and exhausting :) #phdchat
  6. @Orientchris @nomynjb @AbbeyDiaz_says I agree Chris. The impact of the PhD on my job so far has been an important outcome #phdchat
  7. @nomynjb I think it gives you perspective (other things to worry about) so is not all-consuming #phdchat
  8. can work, spend time with family...but I didn't know how to switch off when I had those other hats on. So always guilty! @nomynjb #phdchat
  9. Career progress and spending time with family were common themes in the #PhDchat. Feelings of guilt about not working on a dissertation were also common. Amber Davis made a good point that feeling guilty is a mind set.
  10. @nomynjb @PhDSkills Q5 Pitfall- feeling guilty for 'not working enough'. It's a mindset you can change. Not easy, but it's possible!
  11. Maybe what John Finn had to say can help towards that change -- knowing that being part time can have true opportunities for success in the degree.
  12. @nomynjb @_ajdavis Q5.1 PTs usually have/develop great clarity of purpose. Have a life, but trade- off with longer duration of Phd stress
  13. Distance has scientifically been shown to have advantages. 
  14. Why we have our best ideas in the shower: The science of creativity - The Buffer Blog bit.ly/17eLOqq
  15. Clarity may come making school lunches or problem solving something unrelated at work. Part time students have the distance to make good decisions.

    2. How can decision making about the PhD differ between full time and part time?

    Important decisions made about a PhD such as the research question, research approach and participant pool can be very different between a full time and part time PhD. 
  16. @nomynjb @_ajdavis Q1 biology research: pt PhD has longer duration & facilitates longer term survey of exp. effects than a 3 yr study
  17. My part time status has allowed me to conduct a longitudinal study over two university semesters. In a full time PhD 10 months is a large chunk of time but quite small on a part time schedule. 

    I collected my responses via Facebook updates over four slices in time. This allowed me to gather data and look after my newborn baby at the same time. The four slices in time were each approximately 3 weeks long so I only had to be really on the ball, watching Facebook for short intensive periods. If I missed a day, I could scroll back through the Newsfeed and gather the updates I missed.

    Unfortunately the time I have spent trying to work out how I was going to conduct my research, complicated the process considerably. Maybe I should have heeded John Finn's advice. 
  18. @nomynjb @_ajdavis #phdchat Q1 would be inclined to pick lower-risk research questions for pt PhDs
  19. Too late now!

    Additionally, some disciplines lend themselves better to a part time PhD than others.
  20. @nomynjb may depend on discipline. I’m theoretical/doctrinal in law. So just reading. I read for a bit then write as synthesis of ideas
Continue reading at http://storify.com/nomynjb/working-through-a-part-time-phd#publicize